Yesterday.........I got news that broke my heart again.

Yesterday,


Yesterday, I got some news that broke my heart again, one of my totally Fabulous friend's of mine told me that his partner in life(whom had been sick for awhile) passed away in his sleep peacefully after years of pain that he endured while loving Michael with his whole heart life Michael loved him also, and it made me sad they were so perfect together (to be clear I hadnt ever met Michael or Steve in person) but shortly after Christian died, I was online and found blogspot radio and I happened upon 2 of the kewlest peeps in the world, ONE being Michael Kowch and the other none the less, the  Fabu host of At Home with Victoria Miss Victoria a women who is a team of AWSOMENESS with her cohost Michael I was still upset from Christian's death due to bullying and Michael the sweetest and kindest most loving person , took our friendship to a whole new high, He started rallying with me for my son and he didnt even know Christian had never met him but loved him reguardless and it prompted Victoria and Michael to do a few shows together and I found out listening to Michael and Victoria and Victoria and Michael had 2 guys on who are a significant fixture against bullying and fight everyday as I do against it.

  It was a very positive show and has hooked me up with another 2 kewl kats and I still keep in touch with them via facebook and support their journey as well.
   I grew to love Michael and Steve very much and I even sent Steve and Michael an early Easter basket because Steve couldn't wait for Candy, and it was full of all sorts of Candy and what does Michael say to me, Gee thanks I will send you the dentist bill,lol  they both loved it and loved sending it to them,Michael has been a very strong supporter for me and the kids listening to them playing the guitar over the fone ,Thanking my husband for his service upon his arrival home for us to move to a new place and away from the house that my son hung himself in and to a new journey in our Army life.

 Even though we hadn't ever met I grew to love him and Steve like my own family as do my kids and husband as well, while I am sad Steve is gone, but I hope Christian is there waiting for him to give him a hug and to teach Steve all the things he couldn't do here on earth because of the pain such as Skateboarding,riding ATV's and painting those beautiful sunsets we see at night.

So Michael, I love you and I am waiting when you need me I will be here ,should you need to talk call, if you want to chat message me but mostly know we are all here supporting you and that won't ever change.

Love you Lisa. 

Lately.....

Lately you've been on my mind, thinking about how much you would love it here on the ranch,all the animals we've gotten, 2 rabbits,a duck,several chickens and today we got 15 baby chicks so sweet and soft you would've loved holding them like you did Sava when she came home, and now we have a Ziva and Abby Ziva is a dark chocolate brindle and Abby, well she is a white boxer with a black eye and one brown ear and so so so sassy ,Emmylou is getting older and i suppose soon she will move in with you and she will be back with you again happy to lick your face and cuddle again, I miss you babyboy our lives are never going to be the same your silly smile and flashy blue eyes and laugh are missed, your Hey I love you guys is most definatly missed, But know I love you and that will never change.

  I hope your heaven is all you dreamed and 1 million times more....

Love Mum