Things I've come to really hate!

     Things Ive come to hate, Going to the ER,Seeing a Chaplain,Closing my eyes and seeing the image of my son his eyes open and very blue same as mine are....the last call Christian had to his dad which was sweet like he always was,Andy was cheated he was 1000's of miles away and true to form he loved his dad and that last call to Korea, about the Black Ops  map pack directions and even though it was Friday night he spent 30 minutes talking to him saying he would send an email with directions , and then he simply said, I love you dad I have to go my friends are over, but even with that he still talked to him for 30 minutes! 

  The fact that Ross,Evan and Michael all got away with the bullying with absolutely NO consequences for their actions what so ever,and even moving on to Gregg when they realized he was Christian's brother so messed up that he quit his Senior year where he would've graduated with his cousin Christina so that one "good" thing that should've happened of course didn't!

I also loath a certain some one who says things and wines because no one acknowledges him in Christian's life because he wasn't IN Christian's life per his own fault there was other things far more important in his own life and all he can do is say it is my fault but I didn't have a damn thing to do with it.

I miss my son,I loved watching him grow ,learn to play his guitar,teach his little brother to play video games,include his little sister in his life and value his family and his friends and I know he would've turned into a handsome fine young man with potential to go in any direction he wanted to go and his dad and I would've been there every step of the way as his friends who meant the world of also.

I hate the silence that shouldn't be, I hate mundane idiots who can't seem to grasp that losing a child the way I and several other parents have isnt just a 6 month to 1 year mourning period there will never be a total over it, they will always be missed and the way they left shouldn't have happened ,and until there are laws passed protecting kids of all ages from bullies more kids will leave before they should and more families will be broken hearted and devastated and will have to watch the bullies who so carelessly walk away with no punishment driving that stake deeper in the gaping wound we already have in our hearts bigger and more painful.

I also HATE the way the elected in DC turns a blind eye to bullying but yet if it should happen to their child they would be screaming from the rafters to get laws put in place and in my eyes that is the biggest bunch of Bullshit I've ever seen! So get off your asses and earn that paycheck.