Really???

Why do you think it is YOUR mission to judge how a person judges,dresses,prefers a sex over about, their color cadence or creeds??? REALLY???how we are is WHAT makes the WORLD go round, now if your a foreigner and you dont like the US,Hey get back on the plane and take your arse back to whatever hole you crawled out of, as well in schools, IF you have NOTHING nice to SAT shut your hippy hole ! simple, My son did ask for Ross,Michael and Evan to like him, he had his own world and friends he didnt care a bit about your "group" but see you know Karma she tends to get really ugly when you screw with her.... so  Ross.....Michael.........Evan, when she pays you back dont be surprised if its a higher stake then you are willing to pay because of your Karma.

Post Death

Post death, Myself and my family are working hard at dealing with Christian's death as are his friends,To us, his friends and people he loved and who loved him, it will never be ok this wasnt a death due to cancer,car accident or a natural death, My son died at the hands of 3 teens who thought they had the right to demean my son take away the walls I helped him build, I allowed my kids to choose the path I also tell them  to never take it to a violent level always go the long road instead it was better to do that than a quick fix and kick their asses which right now as a mother I wish I had said Go Ahead Christian kick his ass show him how you can really be, but no I believed them they PROMISED ME they would stop it and now I know they didnt stop his hell they didnt even care enough about my son to do anything even AFTER his DEATH! 
  so to the Marletts,the Verhulst, and Evan's family Be aware that there will be a day that I come after you not physically but with a lawyer and to the Sheriff yes I will go after all of you because you didnt care ENOUGH about MY SON or MY Family! and because of this My blueeyed son my sweet caring loving son who loved his family loved skateboarding, loved his little brother so much He cries that Christian isnt there to play video games tickle love and laugh,  His last words to his younger sister Sissy where "Sissy never ever forget this, I love you always remember this!" shortly after we found him hanging in his closet, Our loss is way to much to explain.

No reasoning No Goodbye I Love you .

It is Saturday 19th of Feb I am thinking I am missing you but your friends spent the night I let them do their thing like when you were here,I remember last year this time I also had kid wall to wall for your  random sleepover becuause the weekend was a long one for presidents day, you guys would go out and skate trick and jam, You would let Hunter and Faith into your world for awhile letting them hang with nicole Sam Johnnyboy Ryan would have a ball but your not here and we all sit in the house gather in the LR and chat Kendra comes I love seeing her back in the fold knowing she is ok she had a really rough time after you died,she hurt she misses you and when we leave with you we are leaving your loving heart behind it sucks because I miss you and now I am left missing her and I am afraid that will have a results too....I love you my gorgeous blue eyed son, your laughter tricks and sweet I love ya mom ya know I really do! Well son I love you more and miss you most......

Oh how do we feel, AFTER the fact?

You know I believe that I belong to an special club one of those secret clubs that no one knows about and is dying to know what the price of admission is, unfortuatly for myself and my husband it was our sons life, We belong to the parents of bullycide group, now Dont get me wrong, I love every grandparent,parent brother,sister,niece,nephew and cousin, I love had the honor of meeting, I feel the anger the pain the couldve shoulda wouldve, I know the WHY didnt you tell me,I wouldve protected you, or WHY did you put your arms around me and say I love you mom you know that right? When ever Christian did this usually he wanted to go to game stop his FAVE place......but this day was different, He said No Momma I just want to know YOU know I love you,you do right I do love you your the best mom! I was like Ok yes I do and I will always....a little later unbenounced to Faith, He said to her Sissy you know I love NEVER let anyone tell you different, I love you your my little sissy,(she was 10 on the day he died she cried to me and mamma I didnt know I really didnt Im sorry..) Whats to forgive? she was 10 she couldnt have know, Later that day He went into Hunters room, the very child he was a mini dad too, he loved him he spent times playing video games with protecting due to Hunters disabilities but he loved his brother fiercly, it is hot We have been having a good time Christrian down didnt feel good......I come in it was hot I wanted to cool down and Wish Andy a Happy Memorial day, a few minutes later, I hear Kev yell I dont know how long hes been there and just off my bed slam down my laptop and go I take Kendra's fone and I scream several times just get a f'n ambulance all the while I am dialing my husband's number in korea which is 14 hours ahead of me, that Christian had hung himself, come home come home I cant do this alone.....next thing I know is Im at the hospital and this man started talking and I am aigtated, I knew how could I not know? I was like JUST TELL ME....and there they were the words no mother father or parent ever wanted to hear, He didnt make it.....I screamed I cussed I yelled I wanted to kick someones butt the person who took MY SON, ONE of the LOVES of MY LIFE AWAY! And in thus,is how I became to be in this club, my nightmarish life became to be on 31May10 330pm I will write more later....

Tuesday Feb 8

Today I sit here in my room, I am watching NCIS and NCIS Los Angeles I miss you Chris I miss you and me on the bed watching the Gators play Watching NCIS the Music awards him forcing me to listen to music I did NOT want to but when I heard it I loved it, YOU my son, were loved cared for sweet loving and funny,Now there is a hole in our family your gone, you wanted to be like Tim Tebow, you LOVED how he played you LOVED the Gators but most of all you LOVED your family with you gone we still LOVE  all of that but we LOVED you more Kendi is back in the fold, I love her because you loved her, I love her because she loved you and WE loved her because We Loved Ya'll! I miss you Christian I love you much I miss you most I wish you knew.

Love in Eternity
Mum

York County Schools

Hear me today Hear me tomorrow Hear me for the REST of your lives, You do not care about your students their mental health or well being, you are not a good school or even an OK school, you hire stupid lazy resource officers who refuse to take a simple police report that very well couldve saved my sons life, but no and NOW you refuse to admit that YOU screwed up that YOU COULDVE DONE MORE....so now my family is left to carry on a life without the presence of my son ,their brother, their nephew,cousin and grandchild. And you really think this is OK??? It ISNT! it NEVER WILL BE, putting you in my review mirror will be good but to what I have lost will NEVER BE OK! you are all ignorant idiots who think our kids are minute to your damn careers I sincerely hope you meet Karma, you shes a really big BITCH and I hope you pay in Hell for what you have taken from me and MY family...